Tuesday, 21 October 2014

i survived a heart attack on October 15 reaching Ananthapuri Hospital within half an hour of the start of an unusual burning chest pain and Dr. Bahuleyan and his team doing angioplasty on me to open a block in a major artery.

in fact, i had seen it coming a long a way off--had known for quite some time something was really the matter with me. now i am back home. have to take complete rest for one month, after which there will be a review. lots of restrictions on food, talking etc. have stopped smoking... will not smoke again.


Saturday, 4 October 2014

geostationary orbit

is there then a condition
when one is in a kind of geostationary orbit?

floating with no gravity,
moving stationary
in relation to the rotation of the earth,
seeing everything,


Friday, 3 October 2014


my four-and-a-half-year old granddaughter neha initiated me into the world of letters for the year today, the vijayadasami day.
she has learned the malayalam alphebet sufficiently well to take my finger over the shape of the letters hari sree and so on without mistake.
it should have been the other way around. i was supposed to do the initiation on the auspicious day on her. but she likes turning everything into a game and reversed the role between us.

what she likes most about grandpa is he is game for anything.


Thursday, 2 October 2014

spaces in one's home

there are spaces in one's home one has never been aware of totally.

i mean i built my house my mind brick over brick caressing each corner of each room watching the track of the sun over the roof listening to the wind from season to season blowing in and out of the windows the rain and the spray the sun at sunrise and the sun at sunset the birds their timings the moonlit nights the neighbours their private worlds and overall, a house one thought one knew from all sides and angles, in a quiet part of the city.

i mean yet i find all of a sudden there are spaces in my home my mind is only beginning to touch.

i am on way to becoming the master chef at home and i now know which tin contains tea leaves and in which tin or tray pepper, onion, potato, green chilly, red chilly, masala powder and where we keep the pot to boil rice and how to rotate the dishes for lunch from day to day according to the vegetables available.

i mean spaces i had taken for granted and had left untouched i am beginning to touch. it had taken quite a bit from ambi all along for the house we built to be the home it is. washing, cleaning, taking clothes from the clothesline, putting away yesterday's newspapers and countless other things are involved.

her foot will be out of plaster-cast next tuesday.